crazy crazy God.

so, its been awhile. summer, in all its hot, hot glory, has always had the tendency to pass so quick. here i sit, the beginning of august, thinking how it seems like only a week ago, I was packing for my memorial day weekend trip.

however, i wear this summer like an old pair of jeans...loving the comfort of the familiarity. but in the same breath, hating the holes. the rips. those very things, which make the comfort, uncomfortable. yes, i've been able to do those things that make summer, summer.... the amusement park, canoeing, outdoor concerts, fireworks, late nights around a bonfire. but this summer, has also been chocked full of hard and ugly news, and bittersweet goodbyes.

one of my most talented friends found out he has a brain tumor. another dear precious friend, watches as his mother gracefully, yet painfully, battles liver cancer. another friend has to go through a divorce. and my best friend and her husband, just moved half way around the world.

who decided that the summer of 2009 would be one to suck? can't i please send it back and get, i dunno, maybe the summer 1999? (where the biggest obstacle i had was making cold calls to those strangers that i would call my "freshman year roommates"?) that was a good summer of relaxation. i'd even take the summer of 2002. i got my sisters jeep wrangler as my summer transportation. i mean, who could hate a summer when you're driving a jeep?! really.

yet, today, i've constantly been reminded that i serve a SOVEREIGN SAVIOR, i have to take stupid summer '09 and praise HIM regardless. scratch that. i GET to praise HIM regardless. praise GOD because it seems that HE has designed a brain tumor to RE-AWAKEN A LIFE PURPOSE. HE has used liver cancer to SAVE A LIFE ETERNALLY. HE has used a divorce to HUMBLE. HE has used a bold move to germany to give example of what it looks like to follow in OBEDIENCE.

these are testaments to the crazy God i serve. He doesn't always make sense to me, but if he was always rational and logical, then our lives would be predictable, subpar, and boring. let's face it, that doesn't sound like a god i'd follow.