First, I want to publicly apologize to I think my one and only reader (Jessica, pictured above). Please extend grace to me, for what ended up being a year hiatus from blogging. Of course, there is always a blog going on in my head, but I constantly struggle with the validity of sharing my thoughts. But needless to say, Jessica has been quite persistent in getting me to update this thing. So basically, if you bug me long enough about something, I'll probably give in at some point....just to quiet you. (If God ever graces me with kids, lets hope they never catch on to that one.)
Lets recap 2010--
Death is never easy. But premature death is all the more worse. Having a great friend lose his mom, when she was still relatively young, was probably one of the hardest things I've encountered in my life. I felt helpless, unable to fully comprehend, unable to comfort pain, unable to heal the deep hurt. I wrestled with trying to make sense of the madness. The short of the long of it is, that I believe that my God is sovereign in all decisions He makes. Perhaps one day, in heaven, God will take me aside and we'll chat over a nice cup of chai (obviously, God's choice beverage) and He'll connect all the proverbial dots of reasons why He let some things happen and chose to be silent in other matters. But for now, Paul's words in 1 Corinithians 15:55-57 ESV is a good reminder to cling to:
55 "O death, where is your victory? O death, where is your sting?" 56 The sting of death is sin, and the power of sin is the law. 57 But thanks be to God, who gives us the victory through our Lord Jesus Christ."
In 2010, My dad was also diagnosed with Parkinson's disease. For the last two years, he had developed an increasingly predominant shake in his arm. It was suspected for awhile that he might have this disease. His doctor went back in forth as to whether or not he should get testing....(frustrating to say the least). But after meeting with a neurologist, He was diagnosed. At first it was a hard pill to swallow. And, to be honest, if I really start to think about what the journey ahead of us looks like, it gets overwhelming. All I know is that my dad, is still my dad and I love him. (Read an earlier blog that reminds me of perspective).
In 2010, God also granted healthy and safe deliveries of babies. My dear friends, Matt and Jody had their second boy, Ridge. We are going to be great friends, I can already tell.
Another one of my good friends, Julie, invited me and a couple of other girls, to be present when she gave birth to her 4th child. My first live birth. (Don't worry, I didn't take any pictures to post). To say the least, it was incredibly amazing. I am baffled as to how, anyone who has experienced giving birth or even watching it, can be an atheist. On another note, when I mention that I watched a live birth most women said "oh, that must of been amazing", while yet every guy who found out said, "that is gross, why would you want to watch that". Just yet another example of the differences in genders.
I have a renewed sense of trying to be a better blogger (say that 3 times fast) in 2011. Only time will tell how it will pan out.
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